There are times where all you can do is just wonder. You wonder what your life would be like if you chose an apple compared to a tomato, a banana or an orange. And also, you can't help but wonder if the world's actually going to end in 2012, like it has been predicted to do. Some wonder is intriguing, other wonder doesn't really make you feel all that comfortable. I wonder a lot, if you must know. I wonder about a lot of things. But no one particular wonder seems to bother me more than what if my grandfather were still alive. Would he be proud of me? Would he be angry? Would things be a lot more different than they are now? Would I be without Tim, without Sam, without Haley, without my friends? Would I be alone?

And since that makes me really uncomfortable, I'll let it go. But I thought I'd share that. There isn't much else that I feel like sharing. Since I opened this window in my browser, I've felt a severe lack of blogging feelings. I don't feel like blogging anymore. I'm looking at houses, I'm looking to move out. I'm looking for things to go my way.